Wild Grass

Saturday, 18th June. 2011

I didn't say it here, but Team Uniform graduated from RRR one month ago. So we got sent back to our HQ, AMS, AOF.(Except of the 6 Auxiliary Instructors who spent only a week in HQ before going back to RRR.)

I'm the type of person who enjoys being in a new environment, so even though most of the people when back to RRR after finish the Start Of Day Brief in AOF, I stayed there throughout the day. They only came back at the end of the day for End Of Day Debrief.

But for the past few days, after one whole week of night shifts, I realized that the people in AOF doesn't really want to give a damn about us.

I might had already realized before then, just didn't want to admit it.

But it's really kinda rejecting for me. I mean, if I'm at AOF, I DID tried to offer my help. But really, more often than not, I'm not needed. They already had teams that learned everything, so why would they bothered to teach us?

That's what I really thought.

So if they really didn't need us there, I might as well spend my day sleeping and playing DDFF at RRR.

Haha. I'm really like a wild grass. Useless, nobody wants any of it. Probably only better than weeds.

I'm probably too weird for others. No unique point. Nothing good comes out even if I try my hardest at everything. But I still tried my best at everything!

That reminds me. I didn't apply for SUTD. Serves me right. Should have bet on NTU and NUS. It's alright! I'll spend the whole of this year making my portfolio!! I'll make sure I get into SUTD next year!.

Let's see if this last hope will reject me too....