December 16 2010
15th is ZY's birthday. And Glee's special christmas party and St James Boiler Room.
Work at flight was cut short till 1530 because we came early and finished 3 craters.
And Mr. Cal decide to celebrate it at Vivo and St James.
And supposedly we were suppose to meet at 1900, then Cal changed the timing to 1930 last minute. And everyone was still late. Damn it. Why do I still go out with these people?
Anyway, to mark today's attendance: Me, WX, WF, Cal, ZY, YX, TR, Mel.
Back to today's event, Everyone arrived at 8+, and we went to Botejyu / Ajisen / something i forgot for dinner. Ate till 9+ and we went to St James.
Wow. First time for me. How exciting.
After the Glee event finished at 11+, they decided to go clubbing at Powerhouse.
And that's the first time I saw what clubbing is really like: Loud musics blasting everywhere, people everywhere, more music, and more people.
I really felt alien in the club. And it's a miracle that I can stay until 2am, standing still and watching others dance. The only thing I enjoyed is probably the touching of other guys and girls while moving through the club. =x
I really didn't feel right inside there. Probably because I didn't wanna let myself loose. God knows what I'm gonna do while my switch is off. I might go find another guy and rub against him, or I might just kill and destroy everything there.
I mean, if me, while, sober, actually thought upsetting the stage, whacking all the people around me, and burning up the whole place. I'll definitely burn up the whole place when I'm drunk.
Thank goodness, at around 2 am, my friends actually got me out of that god-damned place, and decided to went home. I feel so guilty spoiling their fun throughout the whole night. =(
Sorry, people. I don't really want to spoil all your fun, but it's just that, I'm an alien in there, and Cal refuse to let me leave the club floor.
And before we separated our ways in different cabs, I wished ZY another Happy Birthday, and actually thought about kissing on his cheeks before leaving.
Damn it. I'm really really drunk to be able to think about that.
Coming up next, RRR night on 16th evening: more drinking, and Kusu Island trip coming Monday.
Cheers, and Merry Christmas.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
My Past
Sunday, 121210
The other day, WF and I were going home together, and he was asking why do I dislike my father etc.
"Why do you keep a distance away from others?"
"Why do you always try to do things alone?"
I do. Because I don't like people.
Maybe that's because the way I was brought up.
Well, of course I refuse to tell him the reasons. There were too many. Too dark. Too strong. So powerful that it may break our friendship. Or rather, at least someone he would talk to.
It's just too difficult for me to open up to others. For me to believe in others. When I can't even trust myself.
What rights do I have to criticise others? When I can't even take criticism from myself.
On a unrelated note, me and my Dad got into an argument this morning during breakfast. All because I refuse to buy a drink for him.
I mean. I had enough of it all. Why does he always treat me like his servant? Why can't he do what he wants by himself?
"Why can't he put his children's priority before his?"
When he wanted newspaper, he would either ask me or my sis to buy for him. Rarely asking us what we wanted and buy for us instead.
It has been this way since I was young. It's useless when I turn to him for help. Maybe it was around that time when I realise that I can't depend on others to survive.
When I told him lotsa times before to quit smoking after he accidentally burnt me and my sis with is cigarette, he still didn't quit.
When I told him "even-god-doesn't-know-how-many-times" to quit drinking, he still drinks.
It's impossible. I had really given up trying to change him.
Now to me, he might be just another person to provide money to the housing loan. And other utilities.
Now back to WF's question. Why am I the way I am now. The above might contribute to one of the reasons. Me refusing to ask others for help. Because I couldn't receive any, so I rather not to have any at all.
And for the other question. I don't trust myself. So I can't exactly trust others.
I don't know when I would go crazy and stab everyone.
I don't know when the evil in me will take control and take everyone along with me.
There was one incident when I was in primary school. There was one time, when I just got a new wallet. I was happy.
Then my classmates wanted to see it. Of course, being the naive boy I am, I passed it around.
Then it got "lost". Along with what little money in it.
Of course I was sad. I didn't know what my parents would say. I didn't know what happened exactly. But later on, during the day, my "best friend"(read qi jie) told me that he found my wallet in the dustbin, and when he wanted to take it out, some guy poured ketchup over it.
I knew something was wrong. But I didn't want to suspect my "best friend". And I forgot the rest that happened.
This incident really left a deep scar in my heart. I was only in primary 3, and I knew what betrayed felt like.
Maybe that's what really caused me to turned to books. Did i mention that I went to the library almost everyday during my primary school days? Even my teacher was shocked at the number of books I borrowed, and suspect something was wrong when I refuse to write my reading logs.
Anyway, anyhow. This 2 incidents probably turned me into the way I am now. Plus a little amplifications during secondary school and poly days. And alll the time in between.
Ciao.
The other day, WF and I were going home together, and he was asking why do I dislike my father etc.
"Why do you keep a distance away from others?"
"Why do you always try to do things alone?"
I do. Because I don't like people.
Maybe that's because the way I was brought up.
Well, of course I refuse to tell him the reasons. There were too many. Too dark. Too strong. So powerful that it may break our friendship. Or rather, at least someone he would talk to.
It's just too difficult for me to open up to others. For me to believe in others. When I can't even trust myself.
What rights do I have to criticise others? When I can't even take criticism from myself.
On a unrelated note, me and my Dad got into an argument this morning during breakfast. All because I refuse to buy a drink for him.
I mean. I had enough of it all. Why does he always treat me like his servant? Why can't he do what he wants by himself?
"Why can't he put his children's priority before his?"
When he wanted newspaper, he would either ask me or my sis to buy for him. Rarely asking us what we wanted and buy for us instead.
It has been this way since I was young. It's useless when I turn to him for help. Maybe it was around that time when I realise that I can't depend on others to survive.
When I told him lotsa times before to quit smoking after he accidentally burnt me and my sis with is cigarette, he still didn't quit.
When I told him "even-god-doesn't-know-how-many-times" to quit drinking, he still drinks.
It's impossible. I had really given up trying to change him.
Now to me, he might be just another person to provide money to the housing loan. And other utilities.
Now back to WF's question. Why am I the way I am now. The above might contribute to one of the reasons. Me refusing to ask others for help. Because I couldn't receive any, so I rather not to have any at all.
And for the other question. I don't trust myself. So I can't exactly trust others.
I don't know when I would go crazy and stab everyone.
I don't know when the evil in me will take control and take everyone along with me.
There was one incident when I was in primary school. There was one time, when I just got a new wallet. I was happy.
Then my classmates wanted to see it. Of course, being the naive boy I am, I passed it around.
Then it got "lost". Along with what little money in it.
Of course I was sad. I didn't know what my parents would say. I didn't know what happened exactly. But later on, during the day, my "best friend"(read qi jie) told me that he found my wallet in the dustbin, and when he wanted to take it out, some guy poured ketchup over it.
I knew something was wrong. But I didn't want to suspect my "best friend". And I forgot the rest that happened.
This incident really left a deep scar in my heart. I was only in primary 3, and I knew what betrayed felt like.
Maybe that's what really caused me to turned to books. Did i mention that I went to the library almost everyday during my primary school days? Even my teacher was shocked at the number of books I borrowed, and suspect something was wrong when I refuse to write my reading logs.
Anyway, anyhow. This 2 incidents probably turned me into the way I am now. Plus a little amplifications during secondary school and poly days. And alll the time in between.
Ciao.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Homosexual
Monday, 6th December 2010
Yesterday was a fun day. Went out with the usual people. WF, WX and Cal.
WX and Cal wanted to hunt for 'Tiger's, but I'm not really into branded stuffs. So you could say that I was bored throughout the whole trip in Orchard.
While being bored and browsing through Cal's iTouch, I saw something that I should.not.ever.cross my eyes.
It's a app called Grindr. It's used for guy meet guy on the go.
Or rather "Grindr is the largest all male location-based mobile social networking tool for the iPhone, iPod touch, iPad and compatible BlackBerry devices.".
I realized the darkness I've stepped into and quickly closed the app.
But the human mind is fucked up. Once you know something, you can't just "un-know" it.
So I began thinking about lotsa stuffs. Like how he like guys. Like how I like guys too. Like how I feel that he's a fag. Like how I feel disgusted about him. Like how homophobic I am.
Like what a hypocrite I am.
I really need to know why did I felt all those feelings. Now I'm disgusted at myself. Hate myself even more.
And more convinced that there isn't any God in this world. Or any of those devils, demons etc. I believe that the evil of the human mind can probably surpass and devils and put hellish beings' ideas to shame.
Now that I've realized all of these. I don't know if I can look at Cal straight in the face and still be normal.
I don't even know if I can even look at myself and still stop myself from hating me.
Screw it man. I really don't know what's right and wrong anymore. I'm so ashamed of myself. I always boasted about how I'll do anything I said, and how I can do anything if I tried hard enough.
But I can't change my own thinking. My view. Myself.
I'm really such a hypocrite.
Yesterday was a fun day. Went out with the usual people. WF, WX and Cal.
WX and Cal wanted to hunt for 'Tiger's, but I'm not really into branded stuffs. So you could say that I was bored throughout the whole trip in Orchard.
While being bored and browsing through Cal's iTouch, I saw something that I should.not.ever.cross my eyes.
It's a app called Grindr. It's used for guy meet guy on the go.
Or rather "Grindr is the largest all male location-based mobile social networking tool for the iPhone, iPod touch, iPad and compatible BlackBerry devices.".
I realized the darkness I've stepped into and quickly closed the app.
But the human mind is fucked up. Once you know something, you can't just "un-know" it.
So I began thinking about lotsa stuffs. Like how he like guys. Like how I like guys too. Like how I feel that he's a fag. Like how I feel disgusted about him. Like how homophobic I am.
Like what a hypocrite I am.
I really need to know why did I felt all those feelings. Now I'm disgusted at myself. Hate myself even more.
And more convinced that there isn't any God in this world. Or any of those devils, demons etc. I believe that the evil of the human mind can probably surpass and devils and put hellish beings' ideas to shame.
Now that I've realized all of these. I don't know if I can look at Cal straight in the face and still be normal.
I don't even know if I can even look at myself and still stop myself from hating me.
Screw it man. I really don't know what's right and wrong anymore. I'm so ashamed of myself. I always boasted about how I'll do anything I said, and how I can do anything if I tried hard enough.
But I can't change my own thinking. My view. Myself.
I'm really such a hypocrite.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Still down
30th November 2010.
Last day of second last month of 2010.
Still feeling chocked.
Down.
Lost.
Everything has lost its meaning. I don't know why I'm doing anything anymore. It's like, I've finally realized that I've lost my purpose in life.
I remembered the purpose I gave myself a few years back. To solve the mysteries of the world, and to make others happy with my game.
And up till now, I've achieved neither. I wanted to say that at least my sense of logic/deduction skills is getting a bit better, but now I think about it, it's not that great after all. Average, I would say.
Is this a punishment for one who doesn't believe in the power of god?
Screw it. I've live my life without god, and I'll live my life without god.
I WILL LIVE THROUGH IT!
31 more days to go till 2011.
Last day of second last month of 2010.
Still feeling chocked.
Down.
Lost.
Everything has lost its meaning. I don't know why I'm doing anything anymore. It's like, I've finally realized that I've lost my purpose in life.
I remembered the purpose I gave myself a few years back. To solve the mysteries of the world, and to make others happy with my game.
And up till now, I've achieved neither. I wanted to say that at least my sense of logic/deduction skills is getting a bit better, but now I think about it, it's not that great after all. Average, I would say.
Is this a punishment for one who doesn't believe in the power of god?
Screw it. I've live my life without god, and I'll live my life without god.
I WILL LIVE THROUGH IT!
31 more days to go till 2011.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
めんどくさい
Sunday, 28 November 2010
It's been a while since I posted. Nothing much.
Celebrated WF's birthday a few weeks back. Nothing much, just spent a dinner in Clark Quay's Waraku and SAFRA's Gamehaven.
Recently, I've been feeling very annoyed (めんどくさい), troublesome etc etc at almost everything.
Like doing anything is TROUBLESOME. Like dengue sweep, learning driving, walking home.
EVERYTHING!!
Damn it, life's so boring.
It's been a while since I posted. Nothing much.
Celebrated WF's birthday a few weeks back. Nothing much, just spent a dinner in Clark Quay's Waraku and SAFRA's Gamehaven.
Recently, I've been feeling very annoyed (めんどくさい), troublesome etc etc at almost everything.
Like doing anything is TROUBLESOME. Like dengue sweep, learning driving, walking home.
EVERYTHING!!
Damn it, life's so boring.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!
17 OCTOBER 2010
AND IT'S FINALLY MY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!
YAY.
Spent the whole day at sentosa. Been a while since I've went there. Everything has changed. Wow.
Let's see, who went... Me, RJ, JS, Jonan, Clare.
Went for luge. Fun downhill cart game.
WEEE~ So fun sliding downhill.
Went to Underwater world after that, but without Clare because he has to book in.
Watching the dolphin show is so fun too.
Woot. Can't believe that's how I spent my 21st. So fun, yet boring, at the same time.
Either way, I'm finally 21!
AND IT'S FINALLY MY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!
YAY.
Spent the whole day at sentosa. Been a while since I've went there. Everything has changed. Wow.
Let's see, who went... Me, RJ, JS, Jonan, Clare.
Went for luge. Fun downhill cart game.
WEEE~ So fun sliding downhill.
Went to Underwater world after that, but without Clare because he has to book in.
Watching the dolphin show is so fun too.
Woot. Can't believe that's how I spent my 21st. So fun, yet boring, at the same time.
Either way, I'm finally 21!
Saturday, October 16, 2010
21st Birthday
16 Oct 2010
Tomorrow is my birthday.
Early in the morning today, Mom went to buy a Macbook for me for birthday. =)
Is she feeling guilty for getting a iPhone for my sis? I wouldn't know.
But I'm still happy.
Spent the whole afternoon messing with my Macbook.
And dinner with all the neighbors. Made a silly wish about having a million dollars.
Well, if wishing for world peace doesn't work, might as well go for something more realistic.
Either way. I'm a happy man this year.
Best wishes for my app programming.
Oh, and I kept my Mac a secret from my poly friends. Dunno why, but just didn't feel like telling them.
Tomorrow is my birthday.
Early in the morning today, Mom went to buy a Macbook for me for birthday. =)
Is she feeling guilty for getting a iPhone for my sis? I wouldn't know.
But I'm still happy.
Spent the whole afternoon messing with my Macbook.
And dinner with all the neighbors. Made a silly wish about having a million dollars.
Well, if wishing for world peace doesn't work, might as well go for something more realistic.
Either way. I'm a happy man this year.
Best wishes for my app programming.
Oh, and I kept my Mac a secret from my poly friends. Dunno why, but just didn't feel like telling them.
Day 1 of Off days
Friday, 15 October. 2010
Morning woke up. Went Bukit Timah.
Reached Bukit Timah at around 1120. Tried to get to the Nature Reserve but got lost.
Spent another 30 mins trying to get my bearing and reached the NR.
Upon reaching, found a bunch of Japanese school children leaving there. Darn, missed my chance.
And went trekking. Nothing much to say except that I got lost inside there too.]
Spent probably about 1 hour side-tracking/off route.
Anyway, I got to the summit and mission accomplished. Would have been a better trip without all the old people running all over the place.
Went home, washed up, rested, and went out to meet ZX and gang for dinner.
We were suppose to meet at Shaw towers, but after exiting Bugis MRT, I got lost again. =x
Went to parklane, then to Laselle, SMU(?), and then finally Shaw tower.
People attended were, ZX, WF, WX, Cal, ZY and TR.
Ate at a vegetarian restaurant there, where ZX and his gf worked.
Nice place, nice foods, nice price.
After dinner, they gave me my present.
A Sennheiser headphone.
Wow. That must have costed at least 100.
ZX left us for his gf, and we left for GameHaven for some Wii fun.
Turned out that GH has a power outage.
And so, we left for Douby Ghaut ZoneX instead to meet Daren and John.
But we went to buy movie tickets first.
Me, WF and ZY ended up watching movie together because WX and Cal didnt want to stay that late.
After we bought the movie for 2400, we went to the arcade to meet up with Daren and John, and TR.
Played a few games until 2300, and then we went up to the arcades in Plaza Sing because Daren wanted to catch a plushie for me. >.>
I got one at the end.
Played till 2400, we went movie and the rest minded their own business.
Boring movie. Pfft.
After the movie, ZY took cab home alone. Me and WF shared a cab.
And that's the end of today.
Boy, I'm hungry again. Oh, did I mentioned that I forgotten to take lunch?
Morning woke up. Went Bukit Timah.
Reached Bukit Timah at around 1120. Tried to get to the Nature Reserve but got lost.
Spent another 30 mins trying to get my bearing and reached the NR.
Upon reaching, found a bunch of Japanese school children leaving there. Darn, missed my chance.
And went trekking. Nothing much to say except that I got lost inside there too.]
Spent probably about 1 hour side-tracking/off route.
Anyway, I got to the summit and mission accomplished. Would have been a better trip without all the old people running all over the place.
Went home, washed up, rested, and went out to meet ZX and gang for dinner.
We were suppose to meet at Shaw towers, but after exiting Bugis MRT, I got lost again. =x
Went to parklane, then to Laselle, SMU(?), and then finally Shaw tower.
People attended were, ZX, WF, WX, Cal, ZY and TR.
Ate at a vegetarian restaurant there, where ZX and his gf worked.
Nice place, nice foods, nice price.
After dinner, they gave me my present.
A Sennheiser headphone.
Wow. That must have costed at least 100.
ZX left us for his gf, and we left for GameHaven for some Wii fun.
Turned out that GH has a power outage.
And so, we left for Douby Ghaut ZoneX instead to meet Daren and John.
But we went to buy movie tickets first.
Me, WF and ZY ended up watching movie together because WX and Cal didnt want to stay that late.
After we bought the movie for 2400, we went to the arcade to meet up with Daren and John, and TR.
Played a few games until 2300, and then we went up to the arcades in Plaza Sing because Daren wanted to catch a plushie for me. >.>
I got one at the end.
Played till 2400, we went movie and the rest minded their own business.
Boring movie. Pfft.
After the movie, ZY took cab home alone. Me and WF shared a cab.
And that's the end of today.
Boy, I'm hungry again. Oh, did I mentioned that I forgotten to take lunch?
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Mountain Climbing
Thursday, 14 October.
3 days to my birthday.
And I've listed things to do from tomorrow to Monday.
And tomorrow is Trekking at Bukit Timah Nature Reserve. Alone.
Does it sounds crazy to you? At least it doesn't to me.
I don't understand why is it that when I tell the people around me that I'm doing that tomorrow, they say I'm crazy.
Is it really that rare for a human to go to a jungle all alone?
Or is it that their mindset is too narrow?
Or maybe it's MY brain that's screwed up.
I'll never understand human.
Hell, screw this world.
3 days to my birthday.
And I've listed things to do from tomorrow to Monday.
And tomorrow is Trekking at Bukit Timah Nature Reserve. Alone.
Does it sounds crazy to you? At least it doesn't to me.
I don't understand why is it that when I tell the people around me that I'm doing that tomorrow, they say I'm crazy.
Is it really that rare for a human to go to a jungle all alone?
Or is it that their mindset is too narrow?
Or maybe it's MY brain that's screwed up.
I'll never understand human.
Hell, screw this world.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
What happened during the week Part 3
110910 Saturday
Friday. Hari Raya. Holiday. =)
Went cycling with WT, JH, and JS.
Cycled for the whole day.
End up at Parkway's Carl's Jr. for dinner.
And that's the end of my Friday.
Overall is a tiring week for me. Tiring, but happy.
Now for my psychological review.
My homo side is getting stronger. Damnit.
Now I'm thinking of almost all the people I like. Like Nic for example.
Damnit. Why does it keep on getting worst?
Friday. Hari Raya. Holiday. =)
Went cycling with WT, JH, and JS.
Cycled for the whole day.
End up at Parkway's Carl's Jr. for dinner.
And that's the end of my Friday.
Overall is a tiring week for me. Tiring, but happy.
Now for my psychological review.
My homo side is getting stronger. Damnit.
Now I'm thinking of almost all the people I like. Like Nic for example.
Damnit. Why does it keep on getting worst?
What happened during the week Part 2
11 Sept 2010 Saturday
Welcome to Part 2
That was Monday in Part 1, Tuesday was nothing much, so was Wednesday.
Nothing much except Cabin's nagging about how stubborn I was, and told me to climb every mountain I see.
And now for Thursday.
Thurday is Hari Raya's Eve.
A half day, to be precise.
Morning was IPPT.
And I finally passed it.
YAY.
First in my life.
I failed during tekong is because of my inability to pull myself up.
I failed during RRR is because of my inability to run faster.
Because of having Melvin to help me train, I pulled myself up 6 times.
Because I went "Mountain Climbing" by myself, I ran faster.
From 5 to 6 to 7 to 8 to 6
From 11 something, to 1234, 1223, 1230, 1146.
I wish I could have slap the IPPT result right in Cabin's face.
And throughout the day is nothing happy, on the contrary.
Because that bloody Cabin keeps talking about how happy I am, (DUH), mountain climbing, and treating them to lunch (which I agreed).
Camp lunch was nice. Bee Hoon.
And we had half day too.
We went to Burger King, and made a comment about having a second lunch along the way, and Cabin is saying that I'm unwilling to treat them.
wtf.
If it's a joke say it once.
If it's a bigger joke say it twice.
It's not a joke anymore if he keeps emphasising on it.
Farker.
And Thursday ended for me after I got home early, took a nap, had dinner, and sleep.
Part 3 coming right up after breakfast.
Welcome to Part 2
That was Monday in Part 1, Tuesday was nothing much, so was Wednesday.
Nothing much except Cabin's nagging about how stubborn I was, and told me to climb every mountain I see.
And now for Thursday.
Thurday is Hari Raya's Eve.
A half day, to be precise.
Morning was IPPT.
And I finally passed it.
YAY.
First in my life.
I failed during tekong is because of my inability to pull myself up.
I failed during RRR is because of my inability to run faster.
Because of having Melvin to help me train, I pulled myself up 6 times.
Because I went "Mountain Climbing" by myself, I ran faster.
From 5 to 6 to 7 to 8 to 6
From 11 something, to 1234, 1223, 1230, 1146.
I wish I could have slap the IPPT result right in Cabin's face.
And throughout the day is nothing happy, on the contrary.
Because that bloody Cabin keeps talking about how happy I am, (DUH), mountain climbing, and treating them to lunch (which I agreed).
Camp lunch was nice. Bee Hoon.
And we had half day too.
We went to Burger King, and made a comment about having a second lunch along the way, and Cabin is saying that I'm unwilling to treat them.
wtf.
If it's a joke say it once.
If it's a bigger joke say it twice.
It's not a joke anymore if he keeps emphasising on it.
Farker.
And Thursday ended for me after I got home early, took a nap, had dinner, and sleep.
Part 3 coming right up after breakfast.
What happened during the week Part 1
11 Sept 2010, Saturday
Let's see...
That was quite an eventful week.
Monday, took leave and went Mt. Faber.
Suppose to go with WX and gang. But Cabin psycho-ed everyone not to go.
Well, being me is being stubborn.
So I went myself.
Bah, who needs friends who keep on changing their plans on a whim.
If they didn't wanna do it, then don't suggest it in the first place!
Anyway, the view from Mt. Faber is gorgeous. Simply beautiful. Wished I had brought a camera instead.
I followed up the mountain trail, read the map, planned the route, and eventually got to the mountain peak, which is a building covered with pictures of singapore's history.
Moving on, I reached the destination of the day. Henderson Bridge.
We were suppose to come here. Were. Suppose.
The view was amazing too. But the roads and cars were spoiling everything.
After a walk around Henderson Park, the gang decided to call me.
Made a fuss about how stubborn I was and how untrustworthy they are.
Turn out that they didn't go clarke quay like they planned to, instead, stayed somewhere in vivo to wait for me.
THE HELL?
Those guys must be out of their minds.
They told me to go clarke quay and meet with them to play wii at gamehaven.
After lotsa, um, discussing, I've decided to go, since I didn't have to pay.
And so, we had wii, we had dinner, and we went home, with Cabin keep on nagging about how stubborn I am to go climb Mt. Faber by myself.
Hey, at least I enjoyed it!.
Let's see...
That was quite an eventful week.
Monday, took leave and went Mt. Faber.
Suppose to go with WX and gang. But Cabin psycho-ed everyone not to go.
Well, being me is being stubborn.
So I went myself.
Bah, who needs friends who keep on changing their plans on a whim.
If they didn't wanna do it, then don't suggest it in the first place!
Anyway, the view from Mt. Faber is gorgeous. Simply beautiful. Wished I had brought a camera instead.
I followed up the mountain trail, read the map, planned the route, and eventually got to the mountain peak, which is a building covered with pictures of singapore's history.
Moving on, I reached the destination of the day. Henderson Bridge.
We were suppose to come here. Were. Suppose.
The view was amazing too. But the roads and cars were spoiling everything.
After a walk around Henderson Park, the gang decided to call me.
Made a fuss about how stubborn I was and how untrustworthy they are.
Turn out that they didn't go clarke quay like they planned to, instead, stayed somewhere in vivo to wait for me.
THE HELL?
Those guys must be out of their minds.
They told me to go clarke quay and meet with them to play wii at gamehaven.
After lotsa, um, discussing, I've decided to go, since I didn't have to pay.
And so, we had wii, we had dinner, and we went home, with Cabin keep on nagging about how stubborn I am to go climb Mt. Faber by myself.
Hey, at least I enjoyed it!.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Cabin Ng
080810 Sunday...
Today is Calvin's birthday.
We spent his birthday eve together.
And this is what happened.
I met WF and WX in the afternoon, went City Hall and to Marina Square.
Went shopping a long time to find out what he would want.
Finally all gave up and listened to me and bought a bag from Slurping Ape shop.
Went and meet him at Serangoon at 5, but he arrived at 6.
Before he arrive, we decide to surprise him by acting we didn't buy his gift last minute, and his cake too.
And he came. And we went Sushi Tei to have our dinner. And ZY came later.
After dinner, we went to SR garden KTV to sing. WTF. Bloody EX.
Then we gave him a cake, and WF's WoW novels as "presents".
Seems like he reluctantly accepts it.
And we sing till exactly 11pm because of the F-Up KTV system.
We walked around Chompx2 trying to find something to eat. Gave up, and proceeded to the McDonald nearby for countdown.
There, we chatted about random stuffs, and he says that he doesn't want to grow older.
Sorry, but you have no choice, Bro.
At 12mn, according to his phone, I gave him his real present. And omg, was he surprised.
And since it was too late, WX offered us to stay at his house for the night.
How nice of him. =)
Played a bit with his PS3 and cat.
Slept till 6am.
Took bus back to Bedok Interchange.
Took bus back home.
Wow. What a long night last night. You'd better appreciate it. WF even missed his Father's birthday just for you!
Later going out with WT to watch Avatar: The Last Airbender.
AND TOMORROW IS OUR NATIONAL DAY!
Today is Calvin's birthday.
We spent his birthday eve together.
And this is what happened.
I met WF and WX in the afternoon, went City Hall and to Marina Square.
Went shopping a long time to find out what he would want.
Finally all gave up and listened to me and bought a bag from Slurping Ape shop.
Went and meet him at Serangoon at 5, but he arrived at 6.
Before he arrive, we decide to surprise him by acting we didn't buy his gift last minute, and his cake too.
And he came. And we went Sushi Tei to have our dinner. And ZY came later.
After dinner, we went to SR garden KTV to sing. WTF. Bloody EX.
Then we gave him a cake, and WF's WoW novels as "presents".
Seems like he reluctantly accepts it.
And we sing till exactly 11pm because of the F-Up KTV system.
We walked around Chompx2 trying to find something to eat. Gave up, and proceeded to the McDonald nearby for countdown.
There, we chatted about random stuffs, and he says that he doesn't want to grow older.
Sorry, but you have no choice, Bro.
At 12mn, according to his phone, I gave him his real present. And omg, was he surprised.
And since it was too late, WX offered us to stay at his house for the night.
How nice of him. =)
Played a bit with his PS3 and cat.
Slept till 6am.
Took bus back to Bedok Interchange.
Took bus back home.
Wow. What a long night last night. You'd better appreciate it. WF even missed his Father's birthday just for you!
Later going out with WT to watch Avatar: The Last Airbender.
AND TOMORROW IS OUR NATIONAL DAY!
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Stress
Wednesday 4 August 2010.
It's probably quite obvious by now that I only blog when my stress level goes either way too high, or way too low.
And today is the former.
Fuck my Dad. I probably have one of the most useless Dad in Singapore. The whole world may be too be a place.
Dammit. He always spends so much on useless stuffs. Like his 3D crane puzzle. RC helicopter. And lotsa beer.
Why the fuck!?!?
It has been so long since I'd ask any pocket money from him! And he still owes the HDB 17k. WTF? Out of so many things I have, I paid for most of them! And he only need to pay all the bills in the household.
How much would that cost!?
I'd been living mostly on my own since my poly days. Take money from him ever so occasionally. And my sister too.
But HELL!? He still managed to owe the HDB so much!?
I think I may need to move house soon. Very soon. Dammit.
FML.
Seriously FML. Dammit.
5 days to NDP.
Edit: My Heart is hurting, my eyes are painful, but my tears refuse to come out.
It's probably quite obvious by now that I only blog when my stress level goes either way too high, or way too low.
And today is the former.
Fuck my Dad. I probably have one of the most useless Dad in Singapore. The whole world may be too be a place.
Dammit. He always spends so much on useless stuffs. Like his 3D crane puzzle. RC helicopter. And lotsa beer.
Why the fuck!?!?
It has been so long since I'd ask any pocket money from him! And he still owes the HDB 17k. WTF? Out of so many things I have, I paid for most of them! And he only need to pay all the bills in the household.
How much would that cost!?
I'd been living mostly on my own since my poly days. Take money from him ever so occasionally. And my sister too.
But HELL!? He still managed to owe the HDB so much!?
I think I may need to move house soon. Very soon. Dammit.
FML.
Seriously FML. Dammit.
5 days to NDP.
Edit: My Heart is hurting, my eyes are painful, but my tears refuse to come out.
Monday, July 26, 2010
FML
July 26 2010. Sunday.
It has been 2 months since I came here to blog. Life has been ok so far, with our flight training going fine, and NDP training every Saturday going fine as well.
So what makes me blog today?
Woke up early this morning. Went to meet WF and GTR for cycling trip at 1030.
Went from Bedok Reservoir to East Coast, East Coast to Changi Beach, Changi Beach pass by Pasir Ris to Tampines and Tampines back home at 1315.
Wow. That was definately around 25km.
After bathing and such, went to meet WT for Inception at 1400.
Let's see, who were there: Me, WT, Clare, JS, RJ and Dex. Ahhh, I missed them so much.
And after the movie, Clare has to go off. So it end up with the rest of us eating at LJS and walking around Tampines 1. While resisting my urge to kiss and rape JS. And Dex was wanting me to go his house. And I'm refusing him because I'm afraid I'll rape him too.
Darn. Damn. Fuck My Life.
Sometimes, I really hate myself for being myself.
But today had been fun.
It has been 2 months since I came here to blog. Life has been ok so far, with our flight training going fine, and NDP training every Saturday going fine as well.
So what makes me blog today?
Woke up early this morning. Went to meet WF and GTR for cycling trip at 1030.
Went from Bedok Reservoir to East Coast, East Coast to Changi Beach, Changi Beach pass by Pasir Ris to Tampines and Tampines back home at 1315.
Wow. That was definately around 25km.
After bathing and such, went to meet WT for Inception at 1400.
Let's see, who were there: Me, WT, Clare, JS, RJ and Dex. Ahhh, I missed them so much.
And after the movie, Clare has to go off. So it end up with the rest of us eating at LJS and walking around Tampines 1. While resisting my urge to kiss and rape JS. And Dex was wanting me to go his house. And I'm refusing him because I'm afraid I'll rape him too.
Darn. Damn. Fuck My Life.
Sometimes, I really hate myself for being myself.
But today had been fun.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Best Friend
Thursday. 20 May.
Just now, while browsing through Facebook. I did a random name check on my primary school best friend. WJTHL. Yea, long name. I know.
And strangly enough, I didn't find him the past few times, but I found him today. Then it suddenly dawned on me. Should I add him, should I not? It has been 10 years. Of course I missed him, he was my best friend. And he still pops into my mind now and then.
But what if he doesn't remember me. What if he dislike me from the past. What if he totally forgot who I am.
Sigh. What if he finds out who I am truly. Would he still be my friends?
Screw that. Even if any of my current friends finds that out, they'll probably leave me too.
Primary school days are so nostalgic. I am such a fool. I can't turn back time. Even if I regret my past, it'd probably be to late to change anything.
I hate myself. *sob*
Bloody hell, I'm so lost.
Just now, while browsing through Facebook. I did a random name check on my primary school best friend. WJTHL. Yea, long name. I know.
And strangly enough, I didn't find him the past few times, but I found him today. Then it suddenly dawned on me. Should I add him, should I not? It has been 10 years. Of course I missed him, he was my best friend. And he still pops into my mind now and then.
But what if he doesn't remember me. What if he dislike me from the past. What if he totally forgot who I am.
Sigh. What if he finds out who I am truly. Would he still be my friends?
Screw that. Even if any of my current friends finds that out, they'll probably leave me too.
Primary school days are so nostalgic. I am such a fool. I can't turn back time. Even if I regret my past, it'd probably be to late to change anything.
I hate myself. *sob*
Bloody hell, I'm so lost.
Friday, May 7, 2010
Fast
May 7th, 2010
Wow. It's already May in a blink of the eye.
Life has been fine. And I'm still having my identity crisis.
Well. To update myself a bit, I bought a PSP, HeartGold, yea, that's it, i guess.
My headphone died last Monday. And I was hoping to buy a new one before next week.
Why do all my headphones die so fast? =(
And to update my mood for the past few days: Sianz.
For some reasons, I've been feeling bloody emo for the past week. ARRRGGGG.
So ya noe, my current has 13 people. And out of all these 13 people, I get along with everyone except for, um, Mr. A. Yea. Mr. A.
I guess out of the 13 people, most dislike Mr. A. And when I see Mr. A getting along with ZY, I think I felt a tiny hint of jealousy.
Fuck.
Oh yea. And I think my reasons for being moody is related to University.
Wow. It's already May in a blink of the eye.
Life has been fine. And I'm still having my identity crisis.
Well. To update myself a bit, I bought a PSP, HeartGold, yea, that's it, i guess.
My headphone died last Monday. And I was hoping to buy a new one before next week.
Why do all my headphones die so fast? =(
And to update my mood for the past few days: Sianz.
For some reasons, I've been feeling bloody emo for the past week. ARRRGGGG.
So ya noe, my current has 13 people. And out of all these 13 people, I get along with everyone except for, um, Mr. A. Yea. Mr. A.
I guess out of the 13 people, most dislike Mr. A. And when I see Mr. A getting along with ZY, I think I felt a tiny hint of jealousy.
Fuck.
Oh yea. And I think my reasons for being moody is related to University.
Monday, March 29, 2010
BBQ + Chalet
29 March 2010. Monday 0125.
Damn. I should be sleeping now.
But lemme talk about today before I forget everything.
So went to chalet at Downtown East for BBQ.
People who attended were: Ger, Ivan, YiXiang, Nic, Peter and Has.
Well, BBQ and everything was fun. Too bad I had to leave early for my 'job'.
Things to note today. Nic didn't flinch when I touch his dick. And he purposely touch my nipple a few times today.
Muahahaha. Seems like I've be able to convert/play with him soon enough.
Damn. I should be sleeping now.
But lemme talk about today before I forget everything.
So went to chalet at Downtown East for BBQ.
People who attended were: Ger, Ivan, YiXiang, Nic, Peter and Has.
Well, BBQ and everything was fun. Too bad I had to leave early for my 'job'.
Things to note today. Nic didn't flinch when I touch his dick. And he purposely touch my nipple a few times today.
Muahahaha. Seems like I've be able to convert/play with him soon enough.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Life's great.
March 11, Thursday.
So ya noe, life has been great on me. No complains for now. And lemme talk about my job scope.
Basically. It's road fixing. Except it's not public road, it's airplane runway.
Yea. It's slack, the people are nice. And it's 8-5 every day. =D
What else can I say? I've been blessed by all the good deeds I've done. =D
Of course, there are others things that I need to work on, like, controlling my desires.
But I'm a simple person. Such is enough for me. For now.
So ya noe, life has been great on me. No complains for now. And lemme talk about my job scope.
Basically. It's road fixing. Except it's not public road, it's airplane runway.
Yea. It's slack, the people are nice. And it's 8-5 every day. =D
What else can I say? I've been blessed by all the good deeds I've done. =D
Of course, there are others things that I need to work on, like, controlling my desires.
But I'm a simple person. Such is enough for me. For now.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
After Course
Tuesday 16 Feburary.
Well. Lets start from Friday, 12 Feb.
Passed the Driving Test on Wed.
Tyco-ed managed to finished clocking mileage for both Tonner and Rover. Yay.
So finished the whole course already.
Saturday, 13 Feb.
Since I've to report to KBC straight away, I rode my bicycle there. Collected my driving certificate and driving license.
Then went home, shower. And went to meet WT and gang for a quick movie at The Cathay.
Watched Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief. There were 6 people watching in total.
WT, RJ, Clare (who came back from taiwan the sunday before), Jonan, JS (who flying to Bangkok for new year) and me.
After that, we seperated ourselves home for a reunion dinner. =)
Around 9, my whole family went to Loyang Tua Pek Kong there for prayers and such.
Sunday, 14 Feb.
Spent almost the whole day at JB. Mom's sister house. Went there, get some angpows, slept there. The rest gambled 21.
Went to the JB City Square shopped a bit. Then went home.
Monday, 15 Feb.
Morning and afternoon did nothing much. Evening went to Mahattan Fish Market at Plaza Singapura for dinner with the AVS gang. WX, Calvin, YX, ZY and WF.
After eating, we went window shopping a bit. Then went to Clarke Quay for karaoke session. Sang till 1 am. Then went walking around. Bought some alchohol, and sit around talk-cocking.
Shit. I'm liking Jestric more and more. Dammit.
Well. Lets start from Friday, 12 Feb.
Passed the Driving Test on Wed.
Tyco-ed managed to finished clocking mileage for both Tonner and Rover. Yay.
So finished the whole course already.
Saturday, 13 Feb.
Since I've to report to KBC straight away, I rode my bicycle there. Collected my driving certificate and driving license.
Then went home, shower. And went to meet WT and gang for a quick movie at The Cathay.
Watched Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief. There were 6 people watching in total.
WT, RJ, Clare (who came back from taiwan the sunday before), Jonan, JS (who flying to Bangkok for new year) and me.
After that, we seperated ourselves home for a reunion dinner. =)
Around 9, my whole family went to Loyang Tua Pek Kong there for prayers and such.
Sunday, 14 Feb.
Spent almost the whole day at JB. Mom's sister house. Went there, get some angpows, slept there. The rest gambled 21.
Went to the JB City Square shopped a bit. Then went home.
Monday, 15 Feb.
Morning and afternoon did nothing much. Evening went to Mahattan Fish Market at Plaza Singapura for dinner with the AVS gang. WX, Calvin, YX, ZY and WF.
After eating, we went window shopping a bit. Then went to Clarke Quay for karaoke session. Sang till 1 am. Then went walking around. Bought some alchohol, and sit around talk-cocking.
Shit. I'm liking Jestric more and more. Dammit.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Class 4 License
Saturday, 30th January.
It's been a while since I last blogged. Too busy, too tired. etc.
So I've been learning driving almost everyday for the past month. Now I can drive a 3 Ton smoothly. =D
But seriously, it's so hard learning along the way. With not enough sleep, plus craving for the real world, plus craving for news.... And a Driving Instructor that has thin patience.
It's amazing that I can learn till this far.
Losing my weekends and sleep due to this driving course...
'Tis hath been a great week.
Just received a call from Dexter. Seems like he really wants me to go out. But it was a tiring week. What I want now is a good sleep, a good meal, and read finish all the manga that's waiting for me.
It's been a while since I last blogged. Too busy, too tired. etc.
So I've been learning driving almost everyday for the past month. Now I can drive a 3 Ton smoothly. =D
But seriously, it's so hard learning along the way. With not enough sleep, plus craving for the real world, plus craving for news.... And a Driving Instructor that has thin patience.
It's amazing that I can learn till this far.
Losing my weekends and sleep due to this driving course...
'Tis hath been a great week.
Just received a call from Dexter. Seems like he really wants me to go out. But it was a tiring week. What I want now is a good sleep, a good meal, and read finish all the manga that's waiting for me.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Too Late
Saturday 16 January 2010
I've lotsa things that I want to rant about, but it's either I forgot most of it, or I really can't be bothered.
Driving a Land Rover is ok. Sweaty without air-con.
Arrggg. This freaking driving course is so tiring! RO at 930. Sleeping at around 10+. Next day 5 am wake up! Bloody hell. How is anybody going to get any rest?
2 weeks worth of driving a LR is apprently sufficent enough for any amatuer to drive a 3 tonner for SAF.
Hell. I don't even have enough pratice on the LR. AHHH. Why is it that the SAF is so stupid!
I've lotsa things that I want to rant about, but it's either I forgot most of it, or I really can't be bothered.
Driving a Land Rover is ok. Sweaty without air-con.
Arrggg. This freaking driving course is so tiring! RO at 930. Sleeping at around 10+. Next day 5 am wake up! Bloody hell. How is anybody going to get any rest?
2 weeks worth of driving a LR is apprently sufficent enough for any amatuer to drive a 3 tonner for SAF.
Hell. I don't even have enough pratice on the LR. AHHH. Why is it that the SAF is so stupid!
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